[pau2fix]

Hi, I've suffered from this all my life and don't quite know how to label it - let alone seek treatment for it: I deprive myself of sleep on purpose, avoid any kind of relaxation greater than a day. I feel compelled to physically exert myself everyday. I also cannot stand sitting a a desk indoors for more than a few hours at a time. The reason I behave this is to avoid the crux of my problem: the more rest I get, the more lethargic, groggy & irritable if feel. To me it's a most horrible feeling. I suffer (and my family also) when I'm on vacation. I wish I could just be like everyone else and be able to relax and not feel crappy. Every successive day gets worse to the point to where I must go and work out, do physical labor or other intensive activities. I feel fantastic after a 3-hour work out at the gym. But it only lasts a day before the lethargy and grogginess starts to creep back. I actually envy lazy people - I don't know how they can be sedentary and feel well. I fear retirement or being laid-up for extended periods of time like the plague. Help. What is wrong with me?
History: Male, 45yrs old. I have panic/anxiety/depression disorder(since 16yrs old; grogginess has been with me since I was a small child). I've been treated very successfully with first tricylics and now SSRIs. I take 40mg of Celexa, 25mg of Atenolol, and 150mg of Wellbutrin per day. I also have restless leg syndrome and have tried Requip with little results, so I live with it. I am a very productive entrepreneur and rarely have any P/A/D symptoms anymore. Aside from this life-long groggy issue, life is great. However, if anyone can steer me in a direction that would help me with the subject of this post, I would be very grateful

[Sleepless]

I have the restless bone thing as well, but I finally figured what makes it worse, certain brands of coffee and not enough sleep. Also a lack of zinc and magnesuim. Try cutting your coffee / coke cola intake and supplement with the zinc & magnesuim. My legs sometimes drive me nuts on the way back from work after a night shift it does this spasm thing that I am unable to control !!!. Give it a try you have nothing to loose, good luck & let me know how it goes.

[cpap.pal]

The grogginess sounds like it could be due to low oxygen saturation that could be related to undetected apnea. Have you had a sleep study done? Also, have you seen an endocrinologist to see about possible body chemistry imbalances? Sometimes people have more than one thing going on and it's harder to detect exactly what.