Sleep (General)

[livingwith]

On August 19, 2008 I was paralized in my sleep, I was in a half sleep type, because I was able to talk to myself. Now I’m paralized, my mouth is dry like cotton, and my breathing was slowly escaping me. I was terrified, it was like the more I struggled the more paralized I became, and my breathing became worst with each struggle. I was crying out for help, I would say(HELP ME)several time, and that became exhausting. This was one of the worst ones I had in awhile. My breathing would was ge...Read the full article

[Pfree]

Interestingly enuff I commented on another site to someone who has just recently experienced this and lo and behold it's recurring in my life again. In the past years it has been an occasional thing, very unpleasant yet I'm just so grateful to wake up and be ok I just move on. When it doesn't happen again for awhile, sometimes years I can forget about it. But lately it's been about once a week and it's getting old.I don't have the breathing fears it's more like there is something outside of myself trying to suck the life energy outta me. Definitely a scary scary thing and I too am screaming for whatever to stop it.I'm not real happy about losing my serenity around being alone and quiet etc. I don't like being in fear. I don't like losing my sleep and my good dreams.

I find myself making deals w/ "whatever" if you wanna hang around Be Nice!

I had a dream a year or so ago that a friend, ex lover showed up and was holding me telling me he'd save me. I woke up wondering save me? So I tried contacting him and found out he'd passed on to cancer. So I've recently been chatting to him in my mind when I'm scared "ok time to show up and 'save me' please."

In order to fall back asleep which sometimes takes awhile I have a mantra I learned as part of a loving kindness meditation.."I am safe and protected from all inside and outside harm" I find this helps a bit too. Largely not giving it energy is key for me.

But all other worldly manifestations aside I was wondering if you too have been thru any kind of personal crisis or trauma too? That may be triggering fears or on any medications etc. I had a near fatal accident and it thru me into panic anxiety and also take meds for Intersticial cistitis and pain.

I'm curious if that could be contributing. Lets share notes.
Pfree